Dear Little Sis,
It's been a week or so since the last time I saw you and it's really gay to say this but I miss you. I know I can be annoying and shit but when am I not? Our family has made me the black sheep just because I'm different and for that I get leftout most of the time. Nobody said I was perfect and yes, it may seem like I'm superficial but in reality I am who I am. I don't try to be anything but myself. So I make myself accountable for whatever happens. I can define happiness in so many textbook-philosophical ways but, it's irrelevant to me because I know if anything happens to you, no matter how happy I could be, my life would just tear apart and that applies to anyone I care about.
If you read this far and haven't deleted my comment or shook your head with the "wtf" attitude than I'm happy. I know I have bad habits, hey, I've been trying to change that for two years now. I've tried so hard to stay out of your way so, we won't have any petty dispute. I mean, we are young adults know, we shouldn't be closed minded. I mean, you can be a peach one second and totally go medusa in a minute. I know my grammar is horrible.
Alot of times, I feel the same way... my life is ran based on everyone's happiness. I always envied you because I thought you were the one who could care less about other people's happiness because your first two years in high school was like it's gonna be "MY WAY." and it put the family in tremendous sadness and frustration. I remember when we were kids and if Huy was in trouble it took an emotional toll on us, you did that to all of us. But after those two years you changed periodically and we were proud. Not because you started to get good grades in school but you were beginning to show appreciation.
I mean, since I've been home I try not to treat you like a younger sibling. I hang out with you and try to share the same friends and interest. Even though I don't really have any friends. I mean, of course I pay for your lunch and stuff because I want to do that. But lately, I don't feel like I'm part of your family and it became clear when you said it to my face. I take stuff to heart, maybe I got that from mom but, yeah if you feel that way well I can't apologize for being who I am.
Yeah it's great your "HELEN THE YOUNG ASIAN PHILOSOPHER" and you percieve yourself as "I'm so rad and different from other people because I'm such a proud bitch." What you've said to me, is not the first time I've heard it. I can be a Bitch only when necessary and people tell me to go shoot myself. I don't care what they say and I probably won't see them ever again. But with you... we're sister, whether you like it or not and you're gonna be part of me until the day we die.
On your graduation I was the one most excitied about hanging out with you and I was willing to do whatever you wanted to, but when I dropped you off at Chinatown, I didn't even get an invite. And so I just stayed home and watched tv. But whatever makes you happy. I don't want a sisterly bash, but know that I was here for you and I still am.
Be who you are, but be smart about it. | 
